i want to write out wtf is going on within me. Im so angry at K. I know a part of me wants to forget her. Do i feel guilty about how things transpired?
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. Yes. I feel something. I feel like everything went wrong. But this is just emotions. What really did happen? Lack of self. How do i consider all as life as one and equal as myself as Kaatje? Breath. Do whats best. It does not exist anymore. Life is real. Life is physical. I should, as life show her who i am, the words i speak/live. I owe that since i am life.  Monday march21 2011